We Exist

There is that softly stoic side of both of us

I know it all too well

In the best of light

Melancholy

Is when my heart feels most alive

Most at ease

They ask whats wrong

You know the rightness in my wrongs

Perhaps I’m expecting too much of your knowing

Its coupled with truth and hope

The truth of dissection

The hope of love

When I analyze it altogether

I see the inconsistent flaws

You find beauty in them

I find beauty in you

And downward glances

Prove our existence,

Is indeed the cause of violent storms

In quiet universes

September 22

Sleeping in a dreary house
With dreams to trap my unconscious mind
We meet again, and expectation
Has me fixated on the face I left behind

There is always the waking
However

In this house I fondly dim the lights
Its comfortable to move slow in the darkness
For in the light my actions are precise

Yet every time I pull back the blinds
I still find
My future is painfully bright

Relevant Church

These days are that of radical social development. Everyone barely  has time to adapt to these changes, yet alone interpret them. The most prevalent struggle I have seen is that of staying relevant. How are we to make ourselves, our causes, our worlds of current interest? There is no magic formula. Those who say "evolve or become extinct" would be correct, but with special exceptions to resurgent human patterns and those objects deemed "timeless". 

It is a learned discipline to constantly subject oneself to change. A solution comes about with the solute and the solvent- you need the component to dissolve and the liquid to absorb and distribute. The solute becomes fossilized alone, and the solvent is lifeless without substance. Just like any answer for difficult questions, the key is in balance. We must constantly be looking for, catigorizing, and absorbing change. 

Anticipate the change. Look at where society is moving, and make an estimation as to where you should administer change for best impact. Look at who is innovative. Look at who changes first. Look who stays relevant. 

Change for the better. We all have a chance to impact the world we live in, and do something amazing.

What world do you live in? 

Now I'm going to address the church. Churches have been using shocking statements to elicit curiosity from the world and bring it into their community. Often times, these statements aren't original- they take relevant worldly topics or ideas out of context and apply them to their messages. Then, their messages are in the wrong language.

I have issues with all of this. First of all, taking ideas implies credit due for the originator. Taking ideas isn't innovative. Taking ideas/topics out of context causes cognitive dissonance with the audience- christian and non-christian. And not the type of dissonance that provides concrete analysis, its the type that leads to disbelief. Then, the messages themselves don't have the right words. They have a heavily christian based jargon that don't pertain or penetrate the non-christian world, therefore losing meaning and human connection. How is someone supposed to be reached with terms like "secular, nonbeliever, devos, quiet-time, walk with the lord, works" and so on? (Every word needs to be infused with contextual and timely meaning.) Use words that will mean something to people, and provide meaning for their life.

The final one: church is putting the world in their church instead of putting the church in thier world. There is a world begging for impact, but where is the church?- Waiting for innovation from the outside world, inside their closed communities- with doors disguised to look nonholy. Are christian musicians going into the world or just other churches? Are christians innovating new technology and ideas to help mankind or to argue their philosophical points? Are we educating our children how to stay relevant in a competetive and changing world, or are we teaching them how to stagnate and become extinct. Are we doing things with purity and excellence, or are we doing things with cheep flare and dishonesty.

I want a relevant church. One that infuses meaning in every word used, on that is balanced in its change, one that changes the world, and does so with innovation and integrity.

Behaviors of the Moon

Had I not known you as I do

I would have thought you despondent

As you wane

And quietly disappear

They say it's apogee

I have seen a few boys since

They are of the Sun

We have had fun

At night I look out the pane

Not hoping for you to return

Not hoping for resurrected luminescent nights

I know you too well

Though you’re distant

My heart journeys there

But I beg you please

Still,

I want to slip back into

Your spell of night

Quietly

2012 - THE YEAR FOR MUSIC

I don't know about you guys, but 2011 was a huge bummer for music. Granted, there were a few widely anticipated albums such as Drake's Take Care (which delivered),  The Strokes Angles, Bon Iver's self titled album, and newly popular Black Keys with their "El Camino", but overall I was dissatisfied.

 My dissatisfaction derived from a more personal preference that appeals more towards this 2012 year. I don't know though, 2011 just felt weird. The top charting songs, the reviews and energy of the music industry ebbs and flows, carrying an endless stream of musical talent towards different horizons of success. Where stuff flowed in 2011 seemed out of balance and place. Some artists with enormous talent wern't ready to put out there stuff yet, and the ones that were just put it out at strange points in the year, or were touring in europe, or I just wasn't that into. Does that make sense? Prolly not.

Weeellllllllllllllll
LATES 2011
like 6 months ago

HERES WHATS HAPPENING IN 2012 OMG SO PUMPED (im so pumped. did I mention I'm so pumped?)
Already----
 First Aid Kit's The Lion's Roar. This angelic Swedish duo came out with another album of deep, heartfelt lyrics. This album maintains there folky style, but with extreme vocal and instrumental strength, coupled with powerful and invoking lyrics. The album is not only complete, it is tightly woven. beautiful!!!!

Nicki Minaj's Roman Reloaded  gives the general public a thurough taste of their pop princess' artistry. Most people haven't been exposed to "Roman", and didn't see Nicki and Barbie as separate musical entites within Nicki Minaj, and I think this album offers more knowledge on this interesting quirk. She is a performance genius, she's dominant but feminine, she's energetic and commanding, and she certainly does what she wants. However, I don't love the super poppy songs. I was excited because I though this album was going to be all Roman, but in truth, this album was more about Barbie. Barbie makes the money for Nicki, so its understandable. Either way, she's still one of my favorite female artists.

Best Coast's The Only Place is increadibly lovely and heartfelt. Bethany Cosentino has recently come into a lot of fame, she's had a lot going on in her life, and this album is notibly somber comparred to the first album. It has a clearer sound, she slows down the rythym, there are more minor notes, and she really pours out her heart. She maintains the same beachy rock style that is Best Coast, and has some peppy songs for sure, but I really appreciate the refinement in this album, that shows her journey as an artist and woman.

Beach House's Bloom, is so perfect. I love when artists do a darker album, and this album is exactly that. I don't know, there in my top five favorite artists of all time. Victoria Legrand is my role model. Dreamy, haunting, amazing composition, deep and poetic lyrics, I drown in their music. This album was of no suprise to me, but for some reason, everyone really likes this album- especially people who couldn't get into beach house before.







Coming Soon--- (in 2012)

GRIZZLY BEAR's new album
DIRTY PROJECTOR's new album
THE XX's new album
ARCTIC MONKEYS' new album

need I say more friends? I am so spanking pumped <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 cheers

Force Fields

OMG this is like easy cheese cheesy.

So if you get grossed out, I'm sorry.

If you only like stinky cheese love crap, well sorry I'm just not refined in my analytical pallet yet.



Of the analogies pertaining to love- there are two I'm well aquainted with. The love chemistry and the love magnetism. I believe in magnetic love. Its the better love science. We all have romantic forcefields that attract and repell people, some are stronger than others, but only one person will be your magnetic opposite. That is not to say opposites attract, but someone's love forcefield will be equally as pulling to yours as yours is to them.

You will attract and repell many people. Some people with great romantic forcefields will attract all sorts of people, but I'm waiting for that person who just sticks. That I'm pulled so fast to that I can't stop it from happening. Someone I don't have to force myself to. Someone who gravitates towards me so tremendously that we can't be separated. Its one of the strongest bonds achievable when the forces are strong. Equal but opposite. Equal. Love

Love I know your out there.


I ain't in no hurry babe. But as for you guys, fall back. I already know weak magnets.

Moon Strings

Mr. Moon when I stare up at you

I dare you- look down on me

Penetrate my soul through the

Captivation of light in my eyes

Overpower me with your luminescence

And look inside

We’re not so different you and I

Made beautiful by the darkness,

Overshadowed by the suns light

Not like the corpse, not like the

Bloody, hungry body, but more like

The ghosts that haunt

You of course know more than I

But if you’d be so kind as to share

I’d take the time to listen

I’ve watched from afar

I know your heart

It has strings attached to mine