Pretentious People

I love pretentious people. No, seriously, I do.

The derivitave of pretention is pretense, which is essentially to pretend. In order to pretend, you must actively engage your imagination. You must ascend a portion of reality, embelish your personality, and invent different truths from what you otherwise know. Its trickery and escapism at a sane level.

Pretentious people are usually known to act snooty and better than other people, but usually they're just trying to have you think they're different. They want to stand out to you. They want to mask or escape some form of themselves that they are otherwise unproud or dissatisfied with. Some people are pretentiously better than they are, some are pretentiously worse, some pretentiously average. Eventually, the identity you present to others becomes truth.

I love characters especially. That guy who only wears armani suits to school, that girl who has fake eyelashes and two bras on, that hipster kid with three inch thick glasses who hasn't realized that's been out of style for three years, that scene kid who makes you feel sad and angsty just by being near him- they're all pretentious to an extent.

Instead of being insecure, pretentious people change what they're insecure about. They're proactive. People who are like "Ya man, I'm not trying to be anyone, I'm just real. This is who I am." WELL I THINK THATS GREAT serously don't change. However I also think people who aren't a 100% real are equally as great. They are creative, want you to solve a puzzle, and want to keep people guessing. They are secure in an identity they've given to themselves.

I also like pretentious people with huge egos. The are the ones who want everyone to be jealous of them and think they're better than everyone else. Whats funnest about these people is they'll tell you exactly why they're better than everyone. They'll tell you what differentiates them from the crowd, and how they're supposed to be treated. These people love when you feed their egos. So why not? If you try and bring them "down to earth" you're not accomplishing anything. The only way to fight this pretention, if you really are committed, is by being more pretentious. Like "Oh, you drink your coffee with a french press? I find french presses to be environmentally destructive. I prefer eating the coffee beans raw from the tree, in order to fully appreciate the bounty of mother earth without destroying it".... that sorta thing. And thats fun to do as well! Most likely, you'll earn the respect of the pretentious person. Or they'll call you pretentious.

The point of my little rant is- If you're pretentious, embrace it. Everyone else is too, and if they aren't, it doesn't really matter anyways. We're all interesting people- some just like to use their imagination a little more.

Why did she have to curse the moon?

She stood at the driveway

Fifty feet from me

Or so

She was so thin

So we ran to greet eachother

Engaged in long, cooing embrace

We almost forgot her bags

Sort of a deliberate gesture

For quaint stories

So she stayed

Everything was enriched

Her presence had

That power

Her power

Awakened our dear friend

Mr. Moon

And she yelled at him

All night

“Where were you when I needed you?

You left me to die.

I learned the magic on my own.

You were supposed to come for me, and set me free.

 I don’t need you anymore.

You’re going to curse the day you fell in the sky.

Why wouldn’t you just stay in love with me?”

I hope she doesn’t find out too soon.

Murmur

A tornado of fluid
And flaming eyes
Drew me in
-levetation
He taught me how to drown

I am very powerful
Under the moon
Like him

Ghosts

Heres my pseudo scientific transcendental magic take on ghosts.

I believe our universe is multidimensional. And things we cant fully explain like the curvature of gravity on macro scales or dark matter, most stuff thats weird is probably a result of dimensional forces and exist we aren't yet aware of. So ya, there's length, width, height, time, and so on but what if there are other whole dimensions where beings exist?

The earliest forms of science were coupled with superstitious religion or magic. We scoff at people who are superstitious, thinking that with the enlightenment of modern science comes the necessity to abandon these archaic practices. 

So here's what I'm saying. I think even on the earth, there are these multilayered dimensions that influence us. I think there are portals to these other dimensions that science hasn't learned how to detect or implement yet. I also think that for whatever reason, we haven't learned how to physically transport through these portals, but other creatures have the ability to. One that don't have the same dimensional limitations that we do when they come into the earth. 

Maybe thats why certain people say thats why they can communicate with spirits. Maybe thats what mediums refer to open portals to hell or the spirit world. Maybe thats why spirits aren't fully seen. Maybe just like when science was coupled with magic back in the day, there was some truth to the beliefs. Maybe how we respond and interpret paranormal activity isn't totally off base, its just the natural occurrence that happens when we don't understand it scientifically yet.

All I have to say is you shouldn't fully discredit the supernatural. Perhaps science won't progress towards understanding this phenomenon in our lifetime, but just remember- there's still so much we don't understand.

We Exist

There is that softly stoic side of both of us

I know it all too well

In the best of light

Melancholy

Is when my heart feels most alive

Most at ease

They ask whats wrong

You know the rightness in my wrongs

Perhaps I’m expecting too much of your knowing

Its coupled with truth and hope

The truth of dissection

The hope of love

When I analyze it altogether

I see the inconsistent flaws

You find beauty in them

I find beauty in you

And downward glances

Prove our existence,

Is indeed the cause of violent storms

In quiet universes

September 22

Sleeping in a dreary house
With dreams to trap my unconscious mind
We meet again, and expectation
Has me fixated on the face I left behind

There is always the waking
However

In this house I fondly dim the lights
Its comfortable to move slow in the darkness
For in the light my actions are precise

Yet every time I pull back the blinds
I still find
My future is painfully bright

Relevant Church

These days are that of radical social development. Everyone barely  has time to adapt to these changes, yet alone interpret them. The most prevalent struggle I have seen is that of staying relevant. How are we to make ourselves, our causes, our worlds of current interest? There is no magic formula. Those who say "evolve or become extinct" would be correct, but with special exceptions to resurgent human patterns and those objects deemed "timeless". 

It is a learned discipline to constantly subject oneself to change. A solution comes about with the solute and the solvent- you need the component to dissolve and the liquid to absorb and distribute. The solute becomes fossilized alone, and the solvent is lifeless without substance. Just like any answer for difficult questions, the key is in balance. We must constantly be looking for, catigorizing, and absorbing change. 

Anticipate the change. Look at where society is moving, and make an estimation as to where you should administer change for best impact. Look at who is innovative. Look at who changes first. Look who stays relevant. 

Change for the better. We all have a chance to impact the world we live in, and do something amazing.

What world do you live in? 

Now I'm going to address the church. Churches have been using shocking statements to elicit curiosity from the world and bring it into their community. Often times, these statements aren't original- they take relevant worldly topics or ideas out of context and apply them to their messages. Then, their messages are in the wrong language.

I have issues with all of this. First of all, taking ideas implies credit due for the originator. Taking ideas isn't innovative. Taking ideas/topics out of context causes cognitive dissonance with the audience- christian and non-christian. And not the type of dissonance that provides concrete analysis, its the type that leads to disbelief. Then, the messages themselves don't have the right words. They have a heavily christian based jargon that don't pertain or penetrate the non-christian world, therefore losing meaning and human connection. How is someone supposed to be reached with terms like "secular, nonbeliever, devos, quiet-time, walk with the lord, works" and so on? (Every word needs to be infused with contextual and timely meaning.) Use words that will mean something to people, and provide meaning for their life.

The final one: church is putting the world in their church instead of putting the church in thier world. There is a world begging for impact, but where is the church?- Waiting for innovation from the outside world, inside their closed communities- with doors disguised to look nonholy. Are christian musicians going into the world or just other churches? Are christians innovating new technology and ideas to help mankind or to argue their philosophical points? Are we educating our children how to stay relevant in a competetive and changing world, or are we teaching them how to stagnate and become extinct. Are we doing things with purity and excellence, or are we doing things with cheep flare and dishonesty.

I want a relevant church. One that infuses meaning in every word used, on that is balanced in its change, one that changes the world, and does so with innovation and integrity.