3.22.2011

Spring

I'm just really angsty in spring. It's good. Well, I already explained it to you. Anyways, I have more reasons why I feel restless. We are the young and restless. Um, yeah. Well, I haven't been to the mountains, my homeland, in ages. I miss Texas. I have a lot of concerts I look forward, anxiously, towards. And well, a lot of teen stuff on my mind. Its good. Girls need things to think of- dreams to aspire to and create, vexations to puzzle at, and meditations to ponder. Beauty inner and outer, I just admire aesthetics because that is what I strive to be- something that enhances the overall splendor and beauty of the world. Gosh, I'm listening to good music right now. So you know how I told you I wouldn't post a poem for a while.
I lied.
So... here's a new one. It's like "the new best friend". Everyone likes to show that one off first even if it isn't your real best.

Pinning the Heart's Wings

Holding a heartbeat so very still
Like the gentle pressure of a thumb
On a bird's wing-
It's not so very cruel, but still.

When I'm nervous to the point
Of heart attack,
You don't react, but instead
Absorb the blow,
Reminding me to be slow to anger.

But my heart can't take much more restrain.
I'd much rather
Unravel the chord and know
What it is you're keeping
In that slow, gentle hand. 

3.19.2011

Album Review: Angles

First, I want to start off by telling you a bit about my perspective on attitudes towards music. And I feel it is probably good for you to hear my perspective, because I'm pretty educated and thoughtful when it comes to music, more than most people... maybe not an expert but I'll be there, trust me. People listen to music that reflects a culture they appreciate. It may not be their own culture, but its one they definitely respect and revere. That's why you may like tons of different styles of music. But music does reflect culture; its so embedded into it that its almost impossible to decide when trends result from music or when music results from trends. I love many different types of music. And you've heard me use this quote from a friend and I'll use it again, "People listen to the music that says exactly what they wish they could scream at the world". Your favorite music is exactly that; it is that inner part of you screaming to be heard.

Every once and a while, typically every decade or so, a musician or band does something so radically different that music has to be re-defined. I don't need to state examples because you know of them already. In 2001, the strokes came out with their debut album, Is This It. They posed a deep, ambiguous, unfitting title for their wildly successful eleven track album, and set the rock world spinning. A picture of the big bang for the U.S., a naked silhouette of a woman's upper thigh with a black glove for Europe, and a set of rhythmic, divergent songs became The Strokes. With that very conquest, they became the pioneers of indie hipster rock.

Its been exactly ten years since that great feat, but instead of basking in their glory, or fearing to be swallowed in their past, they look ahead with their poise, skill, and unparalleled dedication to the future. To them, it doesn't matter weather their works pay off,  what matters is making good music. Because of this heroic mentality, they will never stop making good music, and Angles couldn't be a greater shout of confirmation of this. Here's the point I'm getting at... I sincerely think the music industry is going to have to create a new genre of music again. It's not that this album isn't like anything you've ever heard, its like everything. They've achieved a successful synthesis of pretty much every iconic genre of rock in the past 40 years into one album, with a futuristic twist, and a classic Strokes style. All I can say is that they knew exactly what they were doing, making it of no new risk for them. Power ballads, power chords, power bass, power drums? Their achievement is practically occult. Doubters just don't understand.

My big question out of this is just what is music going to look like with new junk like this going down? Its going to be  dope, let me tell ya, but I just can't wait to see. My second question is weather their transformation is a result from a cultural shift, or if they're shifting culture? Haha, all I can say is hats off to this band. It's never a disappointment with you guys, and as long as I still have your music, I'll never quit listening.

3.14.2011

Sometimes Said Sometimes Written

Writing is in my blood, it can't be helped, avoided, only embraced. The simple fact is, however, that the magical season of spring (minus the sneezing, coughing, itching, and dying) awakens something very deep and full of inspiration inside me, making my spirit and writing come alive. My poetry tends to be more beautiful, my stories more imaginative, my dreams more detached from reality, and my thoughts more musical. Basically, I've witnessed this change has taken place, which means it must be spring.

Anyways, what I'm excited to share with you all is the fact that there are a few story concepts I've had and developed over the past year, mainly last spring, and I'm ready to re-visit them with new inspiration and fervor. I don't know how far I'll get, but they are some pretty dope plots if I do say so myself. I guess now that I've caught your interest, would you like to read just a little, little bit from one of my larger projects? I don't want to tell you all my story ideas, because I don't know how many will materialize, but its all for the sake of fun. Also I'm really trying to restrain myself from posting poems, I've written about five awesome ones since I've last posted, but I'm keeping them to myself ;)

If this sparks interest, you can ask me what it's about, or see if you can guess the main idea. Its really short excerpt though. HERE WE GO



II
            I became an adolescent and with that came a general desire to venture out of our house. I lived a sheltered life, but when it came time for grandfather’s summoning from God, my father went to help and I grew curious of life beyond the cedar perimeter of my life. I was younger then. Hirakesh was sweet, but wicked. We were best friends and I envied her. So, I decided to leave my home. It was as simple as that, and primarily innocent considering the idea I had of adventure. I did have an adventure, so it seemed, with my best friend. But a journey starting with curiosity for the darkness quickly leads to insurmountable danger and unfathomable evil.
            We were in Hirakesh’s tiger tent; her largest and most comfortable one. Her father had been a sea merchant and accumulated much wealth through his rare animal furs that many people used to line cloaks. So we took our time with various perfumes and cleaning basins. I didn’t overdress, however. I chose a sleek, soft, shiny, hooded black cloak that draped beautifully across my body. There we both were; staring into her basin of water. We were about to attend the ceremony and I was afraid. But this is what I wanted, and now, I was finally getting it: a chance to see what went on past my fence.
“Hand me the black, Melekhah.”
“Hold on, I’m just about finished. There, take it.”
“That looks better; more black, doesn’t it?”
“Yes. You’re very dark Hirakesh.”
“And beautiful.”
“Yes.”
“Watch the water. See our reflections? Our eyes and lips and hair- do you think it is accurate to our likeness? Or does the water distort? And if so, is the distortion enhancing or disfiguring? Perhaps the reflection is the truth, and the reflected the distorted…”
“What is the logic in these questions Hira?”
“Watch. Dip your finger in the water. See the ripples move our image and change the face of ourselves we see? That is what we must do. I have realized, in order to become one with the dark.”
“We? Well, I’m not sure if I want to become one with it.”
“Well, put on more black then. Your light is still shining and piercing me, and if others notice, you will be taken for good.”
“By whom?”
“Their leader. Even I would not like that. It is better to follow willingly than be dragged away. So there, that should be enough. Put this cloak on too. You’ll slip in with the other shadows.”
“And what did you mean- ‘your light’?”
“Well, its obvious you’re pure. And you have this holy innocence about you- they’ll know right away you’re uncorrupt. You’re still for God aren’t you?”
“Well I never talk to him, that’s all my dad and grandfather. But I make my own decisions.”
“Well good. You’ll better understand who I am. It will be fun to change you into a darker girl, so to speak. I have grown accustomed to it, and I love being wicked. Sweet, poor Meka. We are only covering your light. It won’t hurt. So come, we are ready, you must come with me.”
“I’m ready.”
“There you are then. See? You can be very beautiful in the dark. The shadows will take to you. Do not worry, I will not let them take you away.”
“Well, let us run then!”
            Needless to say, my nerves were scattered everywhere that night. I was worried, scared, and very excited. A giddy closed-lipped smile covered my face. I was plunging into the dark, soon, and I couldn’t explain the enthusiasm that prospect brought me. I was growing nervous when we ran. It was dark and I felt the large blades of grass and the gingko leaves cut my skin. Hot blood stripped down my smooth arm and dripped into the moist, black, earth. My blood gushes out very fast, and will not cease to flow unless I apply a large amount of pressure. We hadn’t time then; I decided to let it spill. I was alright- I knew it would eventually clot. Lightheaded and giddy, I ran violently after Hirakesh to the ceremony.
“Are you alright?”
“Yes, I am good, it’s just a scratch.”
“Its still bleeding! They can smell your blood; they’ll eat you alive! This is terrible, if they taste your blood, they’ll know.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“You’ll find out soon enough. But here, um, take this, wipe up your blood. Ok good. Now, put the mud on it. That should hold them off. But just to make sure, we’ll sit here for a time to let it clot.”
“No, don’t worry. I’ll be fine, we should probably leave. It’s going to be too dart to see, and we might not find our way.”
“We will wait. I will guide you through the dark. I know it better than you. And you’re still bleeding! We can’t be so negligent! I can’t afford to loose you- your father would kill me! You’re never allowed out when the sun leaves.”
“”Its fine, trust me. He’s  been far too busy with grandfather to notice.” Just then we heard a rustle in the bushes.
“Listen Meka, do you hear?-Footsteps.”

3.09.2011

Sam Llewellyn

Ahhhhh. Ok my first blog post, if you recall, was on this dewd. He pretty much is everything a girl like me aspires to find in a man. No, like he seriously pwns. I copied his bio, because I was just going to paraphrase anyways. But he's my current favorite author. His demographic of stories that I read is generally supposed be sixth grade boys, but first of all, American's reading comprehension is so far behind Britain, and second of all, I have the mindset of a 6th grade boy anyways so its chill. I just appreciate a good coming of age story, and quests. His books, the Lyonesse series do this perfectly. Oh and his "farm house" he lives in is a spanking castle! This reminds me, I miss last year. I feel like I was cooler. Once your an adult, it doesn't matter what age you are, you just feel lame. Unless you live near Sicily, own boats, and live in a castle.

I'm pretty sure I live in the well between worlds.
I'm plagued by monsters of the deep.
I have to overcome the world to prove my destiny is great.

Ok, here's his bio....
Sam Llewellyn was born on Tresco, Isles of Scilly, thirty miles west of Land’s End, Britain’s southwesternmost point. He was brought up between the coast road and the sea in North Norfolk.
He is married to the prizewinning Canadian children’s author Karen Wallace. They  live in a medieval farmhouse in Herefordshire, England’s wildest and most beautiful county. He owns an electric bike, a fifty-year-old guitar, and several boats, in which he spends months every year sailing in the North Atlantic. He believes that telling stories is the summit of human achievement, and that the existence of humanity on Earth is a story, and that the story deserves a happy ending.
He writes a novel most years. He is a columnist for Practical Boat Owner, Classic Boat and Hortus magazines, and a sought-after public speaker.

3.06.2011

Tragic Adulthood


I miss being innocent and small
Not knowing many words
So I wouldn’t speak at all
But you gave me dreams to dream

Small, though I seemed unknowing
I was very knowing of you
And love, I always drew
In pictures while sitting behind plants
Who hid my eyes

Painted skies in navy blue
Were my gift from you
And I applauded thought I’ll admit
That sometimes I was afraid
Of what you made

Like the mountains cold with fir
They hid the far away lands
That I had planned
In my mind
To young to leave behind
The things I never knew

All I’m left to do
Is grow up
But lately that seems
To grow apart from you
As I retire from the
Navy blue skies, plants, and mountains.

3.05.2011

Matt Helders








Since you can't physically be in love with abstract concepts, ie music, you fall in love wit their tangible equivalents- musicians. I have a huge band crush on Arctic Monkeys, but part of my heart belongs to that treasure of an artist, Matt Helders. He's the drummer/back-up singer. His talent is admirable and mannerisms adorable. I really have tons of respect for drummers in the first place, and I feel like their talents are consistently overlooked by everyone. They set the speed and deliver they dynamics for the song. First off, you have to be a bad a baller to play those sick beats he does, and a s hard as he does. He harmonizes perfectly with Alex Turner, who is Captain of the English Singer Dream Boat, and does it effortlessly with fun and poise. He's sort of the dork of the band, which to me, is all the more attractive. He only wears sweat pants. Seriously. And, he's a bit chubby, and his hair is short and basic. You're thinking, ;how does that make him dorky? Look at the rest of the band- their fashion geniuses. So, this is my love letter to you Matt. You couldn't have a more devoted fan, I wish you the best of luck.

3.01.2011

Hug Me

Recently, I had the pleasure of teaching a dear friend of mine the importance of non-verbal communication; call it body language or gesture, whatever you like, we realized you can say a lot with a hug. Successful communicators use body language to effectively enhance their spoken words, and elevate conversation past mere calculation. But, sadly, many people aren't aware of what they're saying with their hugs. Rather than give you the whole lesson, I'll just share with you some profoundly ineffective hugs.

#1 The Step Back Pat Back
This person always partakes in hugging.... barely. They know its important to other people to engage in this ritualistic behavior, but when it comes down to it, they hate it. You are in their personal space, which creates extreme levels of discomfort. They will never embrace another human body for the sake of emotional connection, they have places to go, things to do, and frankly you're wasting their time. After they politely hug you, from arms distance, and give you a good ol' slap on the back, you're left feeling very deprived, self-conscious with your body, and stressed about the durability of the friendship. "Thanks for the hug bro, I get it. I think I'll just go cry alone in a ditch somewhere for a while, its clear thats what you want" :(


#2 The Death Squeeze
We're amping up the awkward. Ok, this one boys and girls do equally, I've seen and experienced it from both. For this type of guy, you've got to prove to the world that you are masculine. Like the conversation, you're in charge of the hug. That bro coming up for the hug, you've got to take him down. You're thinkin, "sick I'll get him in a death lock that will have his abs hurting for a month!" Take it easy bro, we all think you're strong. Then, you think "well, the harder I hug that girl, the more she'll know I really really like her, and she'll see how strong I am!" You have one part right, we will realize how strong you are. But, making a girl feel like she needs to scream for help from an attack but can't because there's no air in her lungs is a bad call dewd. Like people, hugs are fragile. I mean, how would you feel if someone died? Oh and girls, you're stronger than you think. If you decide that its ok to hug a guy with all your might, do you really wanna be telling him, "Yeah, you thought girls wern't strong? Well, actually we are, and you may pass out from my hugs they're so aggressive" "I love you so much I could just maul you to death!" is not cute. Be ladies, come on! D:


#3 The Human Knot
One of the most common hug issues is this one. Alright, you're around the same height as your friend, you haven't seen each other in a while, let alone hug, but you made eye contact and you're both inching towards each other, arms open as if you're trying to maintain your balance but you're trying to show you're coming in for the hug. They reciprocate gestures, but you're making too much eye contact during the hug, you should have been focusing on you're arm placement. You're thinking "Oops, ok that configuration definitely didn't work. Sorry, I didn't mean to punch you in the side. Ok, are they going over and I'm under, should we do one of each, oh wait, why are our arms twisted up like this?" Before you know it, its over and you never successfully commenced the hug. Um, yeah, you probably should just leave now, I doubt that person will be talking to you in a while. :\


#4 The Lingerer
Ohhhhhhh, youuuuuuuu. This person is the shame of all huggers. Everyone knows what I'm talking about, because we've all experienced a lingered hug. Truth of the matter is, this taboo has got us so frightened, were willing to commit any other hug infraction in sacrifice to keep from committing this one. Lingering means social death forever. I think the reason why we detest this hug is because we don't really understand why someone engages in this type of hug. The lingerer comes up, and they're totally normal. I mean, sure, they're probably not quite considered a friend, but they seem harmless enough. I think I figured out the verbal cue though... "Oh my goodness, I haven't seen you in FOREVERRRRRR. How are YOUUUUUU?' They're dragging out their words, thats potential to drag on the hug. Always go in for a side hug to be on the safe side... use the step-back-pat-back if you must, because that potential friendship is shattered as soon as they do it. And you'll be screaming "When will this be over! Do you guys see this? I literally can't get out of this limp, uncomfortable hug!" :[

#5 Bro Bump
"Broooo. Dewd bro, how's it going man guy?" "Rad as my abs broson" "Haha, broooo!" Then you chest bump, in combo with a solid back slap, and for whatever reason you start fighting. This is not uncomfortable for you two, but everyone else is rolling their eyes, and standing around waiting for you to finish. Akward bromance will make people not resent you, or keep them away, but they will loose a little sliver of respect for you, bro. And oh, never never never, ever ever ever, chest bump a girl. You're reading this like "what? Who does that? I would never." It happens, too often, trust me.

#6 Back Grab
Unlike all of the previous doomed huggers, this hugger knows what his/her body language is implying. Its absolutely terrifying. You really need to say away from these people, because when they give you this hug, and you cringe with chills and nausea, they gain even more satisfaction. They are power hungry monsters, and derive all the more pleasure from your discomfort. Do you not know what hug I'm talking about yet? Its when someone comes up from behind you and hugs you. Usually, its one arm around the neck and one around the waist, or both around the waist. It literally feels like their going to kidnap you, whisk you away to their house of terrors. On that note, girls aren't above this one... it happens. Oh, but if you're a couple and you're doing this around people. Stop it... you look like creeps. I mean honestly, you could be making out and I'd be less uncomfortable than when you hug like this. Basically, just try and stay away from sketchy people. Always hang out in public areas, get some good bros to watch your back, and carry a gun. Better yet, get a pet tiger. No one messes with tigers. Have you seen there eyes?

Ok well thats pretty much it... Have a good day and go hug a buddy ;)