My Little Muses of Delusion

Chew On It

There are so many intricate layers to a culture. Behavioral patterns, languages, stories, arts, technology, morals... things we take from our everyday surroundings that we adhere to our person are all incorporated to that massive subcategory of humanity. I don't know, I guess I just think its pretty funny- we make such great strides to cultivate and shape the components into an individual description of ourselves. We have opinions on everything, so much so that our opinions become extensions of the descriptions of our person. Opinions differ vastly in all categories, yet are distinct enough to generalize from one large culture to the next. The American worldview and culture is different from other world cultures, and so on. Even still, as "Americans" we form distinct alliances, choosing differing opinions on politics, religion, arts, sciences, and morals. Its just so funny to me that the arbitrary is glorified into something almost spiritual. I have lead myself to believe that my opinions on clothing, music, religion, politics and so on define who I am amongst others, but I can still fit into a generalization. I guess what I'm trying to get at (if you could even track what I've been saying at all) is that we think we're so different, and we form such strong opinions on things that just make us more generalized into a type of culture. haha. Its humbling to realize you're not so original, and that your opinions are just a tiny thread in the tapestry of a large society.

Haunting

I think things that are haunting are some of the most beautiful and inspiring things. Here are some definitions of the word that I love.

Continually recurring to the mind; unforgettable

poignantly sentimental; enchantingly or eerily evocative

arousing or capable of arousing deep emotion;

having a deeply disquieting or disturbing effect

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Death Dreams

In almost any suspenseful dream, you'll reach a certain point where your subconscious decides that it's necessary for the plot and momentum to propel you into a situation where you are dying. This happens to me quite frequently in that unconscious mental state, but then you wake up right as they stab you or the trigger is pulled or the giant bear rips your head off. On two separate occasions my brain has decided to try and simulate what it would be like if I actually died. The first time this happened made logical sense and it seemed like a viable scenario of death- it went along with my religious beliefs on death (for the most part) and honestly, it made the "journey into the after life" less scary for me. Well the other instance when I "died" in my dream happened just last night. It was completely random and I have no idea where my brain pulled these ridiculous theories. When I died and got sent to this weird alternate dimension, I was so mad that I died. I totally wasn't ready, I loved living my life, and there were so many things I wish I had finished. You know how you can keep up with the plot in your dreams because your own brain is making it up, well my brain totally threw a curve ball at me, because I couldn't seem to handle it at all. All in all, I think its important for us to realize that we don't know when we're going to die, and most likely, its not going to be at a convenient time; they're are going to be things you wish you had done. So, whatever it is that you want to accomplish before you die, go out and do it.